"Cardiovascular Activity": world's stuffiest expression.

I miss the cardio of childhood.

The kind that came spontaneously.

Now it's the kind that's not only planned, but dreaded. I have to organize a run with myself. Schedule it through work, school and the sluggishness that comes with hips and responsibility.

Ah. the of a cardio of adulthood. Now it's bearing a cross for three miles of shin splints and fallen arches.

What happened to cardio that just HAPPENED. Through back yards and across ditches and after the make-believe. It didn't have to be organized: all girl, all boy, co-ed, 5k, 8k, two hand touch, spin, zumba, butts and guts.

I want to run to the neighbor's in hopes of a friend being home, bang on the door until their mom (not boyfriend) answers. And then just PLAY. Play until daylight decides you're out of time, or until someone's pride gets hurt and goes home, leaving us all enthralled with a drama we don't understand yet.

Where the cold burning of your esophagus fuels you instead of slowing you down.

I miss the feeling of being absolutely exhausted and still finding the will to run to base.

I miss the cardio of childhood.

Carl Sandburg

I'm becoming obsessed with him I had always thought of him as that guy who wrote that overrated poem about fog as a cat they made us read in the eigth grade. I couldn't have been more wrong

OUT of the fire
Came a man sunken
To less than cinders,
A tea-cup of ashes or so.
And I,	5
The gold in the house,
Writhed into a stiff pool.

Bass Head

I have spent the whole night drawing.

It's probably the weirdest thing I've ever done, and by the time I finish I think it'll be my favorite. I love the feeling of starting a drawing and just knowing it's going to go well.

I'm starting to get so excited about life after college. For the first time in my life I actually have a list of STUFF I want to do!!!! Places to go, things to learn, art to see.

And hey, I know I'm not the first upcoming college graduate with a big imagination and an even bigger to do list, but I don't care.

Somewhere along the way things get compromised. But I'm feeling pretty uncompromising. Sure, 99% of people with an ambitious post grad to do list end up putting away in some box with the rest of their childhood. But not EVERYone.

What's even more beautiful is having someone who embellishes, helps you check off, and mot of all supports your to do list.

The ones on the horizon

1. See Skrillex

2. Get something published

3. Go to Coachella

4. Live in another state for a period of time

For the first time I'm so excited about life after college.

They say that college is the best years of your life. All in all mine were pretty lackluster. But I'm starting to see that as a good thing. The good years are still ahead of me. The best years of my life are still on their way. But I think I'll always think that way. I'll never be too old to have to the best years of my life coming. I hope I'm never too old for anything. Except miniskirts. I'm already too old for miniskirts.

But I never want to look at anything and wave a hand at it, with that tired phrase "Oh, you go ahead, I'm too old for all that."

The Vortex

Needs to learn to separate the cinnamon from the cumin. Chili: tastes like Christmas. Status: being eaten, because this is college, and we don't waste.

Meanwhile I'm writing a paper on the Norman conquest. Status: procrastinating at page two with cinnamon flavored nachos.

Rest of my schoolwork: being dominated by the Norman conquest.

It's a sad, sad circle my friends.

Ink Wash

It is so black and windy outside. Like when someone pours ink into water. swirling and greying, dark and beautiful. I love wind. Like stitching through earth's cloth.

How great would it be if everything was like the magic room in Willy Wonka full of candy??? If dirt was really just brownie bits, and everything green tasted like mint. I bet with that much sugar at our finger tips, people wouldn't actually crave it constantly. We could eliminate the obesity problem!

Did you know that by now, it doesn't matter how often children brush or floss their teeth? They will get a cavity. There is so much sugar in absolutely everything we eat that it has become inevitable for people being born into this generation. Good Gracious. I'm going to have to make my kids eat nothing but tofu, aren't I?